ups and downs

well yesterday i tried getting a loan on my new car, but the two new buyer stipulations on the car itself made it so that i didn't qualify. oh well. not having credit can suck sometimes. but now i have a good reason for building it. anyway, i'll post more later

Brian and Janelle Smith

Brian and Janelle are the adopting parents of little Lauren. They are a young couple who are absolutely wonderful. Brian works full time, and Janelle is partly going nuts because she's been at home so much since Lauren came home. They originally contacted me because they wanted both birth parents to be involved in her life, at least as much as we could be. They've had some misfortunes in their life, but they remain srtong in what they believe in. they are really good parents and are really exstatic about Lauren being in their lives. They're both wonderful to be around and I hope that this continues to go well for them. Brian and Janelle live in American Fork, UT, and have a good place to live.

Lauren, and her birth mom

Lauren Smith is my child. she is nearly 4 months old, and is really cute. Brittany Bird is her birth mother. Brittany has a good heart, but we obviously weren't right for one another. we aren't talking but i am working on letting my emotions for her go. I have seen Lauren, her birth parent's have been very generous in letting me even in their life. I am going this week to see her again if Brian and Janelle (adopting parents) don't mind me dropping by. I am not too enthusiastic about all this, but i am not going to stand around any more. I have my doubts about the paternity of Lauren, wether she's mine or not. But maby things will turn out for the better, at least i'll be in her life if she is mine. The reason for my doubts comes from her birth mother. Brittany has given me very much reason not to trust her because of what she does. But she still has some good in her, i just hope that she can change and make her life better for herself, and for Lauren.

Hey

Zdrastvoy! hey i'll be puttin my life's story on here as the days go by i'll talk about what i've done and who i meet, so just basic stuff. if you're an old friend or a new one go ahead and post a comment and let's chat it up! oh yeah and if you're a former TWer of 2007 contact me!