Monday, March 24, 2008
Lauren, and her birth mom
Lauren Smith is my child. she is nearly 4 months old, and is really cute. Brittany Bird is her birth mother. Brittany has a good heart, but we obviously weren't right for one another. we aren't talking but i am working on letting my emotions for her go. I have seen Lauren, her birth parent's have been very generous in letting me even in their life. I am going this week to see her again if Brian and Janelle (adopting parents) don't mind me dropping by. I am not too enthusiastic about all this, but i am not going to stand around any more. I have my doubts about the paternity of Lauren, wether she's mine or not. But maby things will turn out for the better, at least i'll be in her life if she is mine. The reason for my doubts comes from her birth mother. Brittany has given me very much reason not to trust her because of what she does. But she still has some good in her, i just hope that she can change and make her life better for herself, and for Lauren.
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Lloyd, I hope you don't mind that I checked out your blog. I'm am glad that you have met Brian and Janelle and Lauren. They have become very special to me.
I feel badly that you still doubt Lauren's paternity. I can see that you are her birthfather whenever I look at her (even though she mostly looks like Brittany). Don't you think that Brittany would have kept her if she were Matt's and they are now married? I know that Brittany hurt you a great deal, but I hope that you can move on with your life just as she has and become a better person for having gone through this particular trial.
There is just one other thing I want to mention. You said that Lauren is your child. I think that it is much better to refer to her as your biological child instead of as your child. Lauren is Brian and Janelle's child. You have probably noticed that Brian and Janelle refer to you as the birthfather and Brittany as the birthmother. This is because that is what you are. Brittany is not Lauren's mother and you are not her father. I am not Lauren's grandmother. You will notice that Brian and Janelle refer to me as "Mareen" or "Brittany's mom". Brian and Janelle have been wonderful about allowing all of us to be a part of Lauren's life, but I think it is disrespectful to Brian and Janelle to make statements that Lauren somehow belongs to us by calling her our child or grandchild or by calling ourselves her parents or grandparents. Brittany and I always told Brian and Janelle that the baby was theirs. Brittany told them that they were the parents and that we thought it best that Brian and Janelle always be Dad and Mom to her although Lauren would know you and Brittany as her birthparents. Brittany, Brian, and Janelle agreed that , Brittany's dad and I (and your parents) should never call ourselves grandparents. She is going to be sealed to Brian and Janelle and be a part of their eternal family. All of us are the extra people that love her sooo much.
I hope that I have not offended you with anything that I have said. That was certainly not my intent. If you wish to reply you can email me at mb_extramart@msn.com.
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