Okay... Been a really long time.

Ok. So it's a been one year or so since I made my last post.

Since then me and Andrea have been broken up since May 5 of this year. I was totally devastated for the next three or four months of my life. I was using drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes to try and "smooth" things over. Well, that wasn't working. I was just getting worse and worse emotionally. I was reaching new lows to my life. I kept looking for new outlets and new partners. However I kept failing to try and bring my emotional state and stability to a better level. even my coworkers had started to worry about me. Whenever I would come into work someone would always be trying to help me feel better.

In the Last week of August I got the feeling that I needed to return to church. I went to my landlords and had gotten the information I needed, and I later called the Bishop of the local singles ward. I had made an appointment with him for that Sunday to meet and talk about how things were going in my life, and also to get to know each other a little bit since we would be meeting often with one another. He is an amazing man, my Bishop. He understood me as well as understood that things would be difficult for me. He gave me small things to work on, and from there he started to help build me up.

Since then, my life has gotten much, much better and so much more peace has been invited back into my life. At Lauren's third birthday party, me and Brittany Karren (Lauren's Birth Mother) had a unique opportunity to make things right between us. Afterwards we had finally found peace with each other. And I could not have done this on my own. The hand of God had played His part in this, and I am eternally grateful for it.

I have also had opportunities to meet new people and to further my relationships with my family. All-in-all, my life has been the best since I returned to the light.

I lost my job at the beginning of November, and had to move back in with my family. However I have been able to further myself greatly and will be taking the GED on Tuesday the 21st. And have been able to make other personal changes with myself and also to help my family out when they need me to help around and it relieves some stress for everyone.

I have some of the best people in my life now. And it makes things so nice to have them there to rely on when I need some support and clarity in my life. Thank you all! You know who you are.